Jangan BACA kalau anda rasa anda budak BAIK....

Assalamualaikum..

Dukacita saya maklumkan anda semua, sekarang saya di dalam emosi pre-menstrual jadi pergolakan perasaan bercampur baur bak aisbatucampor adalah sgt dahsyat dan TER-panggil untuk menulis entry ini. Awal-awal saya warning, entry ini adalah sisi tidak baik diri saya yang bukan saya bermegah-megah untuk menonjolkan, tp, inibelogsaya bak kata Hanis Zalikha, jadi sukajantung saya la nak tulis yg baik atau yang buruk, this is my place afterall. So guys, basically, what you're gonna READ afterwards is something about who-what-things that irritate me the most whether in the past-present or future. Again, I didn't expect comments like you're feeling what I had felt before, just chillax and some 'strengthen' words are acceptable.

Again, if YOU are budak BAIK, please please please don't ever try to read this entry cuz it is not good for your health =)

To begin with, let me start with :

1) PERSON(S) I "cherished" the most and they are in my never-forget-entire-of-my-life list.

So, let me just give some hints on these particular person(s) rather than straightforward mentioning their names cause I'm a girl-with-sane-mind-that-never-humiliate-person-that-bad. They are essentials in every family. They are the breadwinner(supposedly), the toughest, the greatest, the idol for the daughter *whoops, did I just popped-out something too clear?* and the best. I guess I'm "lucky" cause I have 2 instead of 1. But, actually I'm not cause right now under my good senses, having none is the best. Cause having 2 making you people wondered that all the loves, attentions, pocketmoney(s) I have it in double but actually I'm not and most of the time, I got none. No loves, no attentions and the suckest thing on top of it, no pocketmoney(s) as well. So, why bother to have even 1 or 2 if both are useless, unreliable?. Who makes me feel bad the most is the biological one cause keep thinking that *i* blood is in mine, I felt a deep hatred to myself. Not to mention the not-so-important second who came unexpected under unsuitable timing keep saying to reassure that "us" are going to have a great life ahead and heal the lame wound,blablabla, spreading all the liars and that's it, NOTHING!. Ok, h* did some soo minor changes to the house *if you are details enough, you'll notice* or to be precise, the kitchen, FINE!!...So, if and only if it happens that I wanted to turn back time, I would be delighted that the second will N.E.V.E.R appear at all. Hah, by only writing all this I just cannot tolerate anything anymore from both and please please please, don't you ever said that you are sorry for everything happened cuz it won't change our path of life. Forgiveness aren't fit for people like you both and until you both really make a very BIG GOOD changes which will benefits us in all way, then I'll be more considerate.*phewww, at last, settled*

2) WHAT makes me in a very tolong-jangan-tegur condition

Definitely when I'm totally broke, I'm gonna act like b**ches, the worst I guess. When I said I'm broke that means "Hey, I just have 10 bucks in my purse to survive until next year!", oke, that is sooo over. So people, keep donating me more money if you don't want me to be like tuuuttt. Next!!!

3) Finally, THING(S) that irritate me like hell

Shoes on racks for sale but there's no giant size for me =(. Making me waiting when you have promise me something esp on what-time-you-are-coming-to-fetch-me. When YOU said, 9 am, it MUST be 9 am, not 9.01 am. It must be as sharp as a razor with IDC the speed or you were caught in speedtrap or watso unless you've informed me earlier (1 mins earlier is not considered). Or else, I won't hesitate to say "Just cancel as for today" walopon anda dh sampai betol2 depan gate kolej or memujuk ala kadar. See, I'm the b**ches right?

*Berbalik kepada bahasa negara tercinta*

Jadi, tamatlah sudah sesi mulot jahat mcm longkang edisi diri saya yg serba kekurangan. Saya tak bermaksud untuk judge org2 yang saya sebut, sekadar meluahkan apa yang terbuku di hati agar 'mereka' tahu bahawasanya di sebalik senyuman, ketawa dan girang saya, ada terselindung duka semalam yang cukup membuatkan saya selalu rasa putus asa akan apa yang masa hadapan akan janjikan utk diri saya. Maafkan saya ats kekasaran di atas dan jgn ckp saya tak warning, awal2 saya dah warn yg entry ni mmg sgt jahat. Anggaplah ini adalah kekurangan saya sbg hamba Allah. Sekian~

sebagai selingan, agak2 saya yang mana satu kalu lompat dari air sbb tekejut nmpk jaws?

Lotsa lovey dovey..